in which i have received my visa!

talk about a fast and efficient government agency... it took 4 days to process and issue my visa and 1 day to get to me. i'm impressed! do we have that kind of service anywhere in the states? it was harder to get my friggin driver's license! it'sactually quite cool looking... it's got those blue and red threads and microprint like you see on money. and my updated picture... my passportpicture is me as an awkward chubby teenager; this one makes me look like a young woman :)

speaking of being a young woman, i went on a little shopping adventure which was originally supposed to just burn time. however, i found some shoes and fell in love with them and then bought them. leather, good construction, low heel, soft insole, and absolutely adorable!
so now i have them and i lovelovelove them. needless to say, they complete the variety of shoes i need: black, brown, comfy, and sandals. the comfy is usually TOMS, which are my absolute favorite, but tend to wear out a bit quickly (especially with keeping color. boo.). i need to get a black or navy pair. ooh navy :)

another thing i need to get done is my hair. i'm thinking not just a cut, but a different style. any ideas, people? don't worry, i'm not going justin bieber short or anything.



well i am home with the family! that last week at school was all over the place between finals, packing, and spending time with my sweetie.

i hardly remember studying or anything like that. i know i did well on my finals, but i definitely felt best about mmw, with which i am finally done! my grades were posted today! well, three of them. two As and a B in morphology. i'm quite bummed i didn't even get a B+. maybe i bombed the final or something. at any rate, my A+ in psycholinguistics should keep my major GPA creeping toward that 3.75! i'm not expecting much more than a B in french because i didn't get As all quarter. plus the grammar really takes away from all your possible points.

mom came down to pick me up after i had packed everything. we loaded at least half my stuff into the car tetris style on friday night last week, i guess it was. that way, we had a parking spot and didn't haeve to worry about move-out/commencement traffic. we finished up in the morning, but so much had been left behind by my roommates who had to take off so quickly that i had to take care of a ton of it. oh well.

we spent the morning with my aunt at the cove and then met cuong for tea so he and i could go spend some time together before i took off. we went to balboa park and the science center there. oh, and the rose gardens, which were in full bloom and smelled wonderful! the weather had just cleared up; how nice! after those few hours, we drove up to where my mom, aunt, and i would be staying so that we could all have dinner together. we ate at the fancy restaurant there and it was so glorious! cuong and i split venison chops, and for desert i chose the creme brulée. we were so stuffed even that we had to go for a walk down to the shore. the waves were so soothing. saying goodbye was hard. i definitely cried a lot of tears. we hugged and hugged and hugged. all i know is that all the times we've spent together were just wonderful, and that's what i'm going to hold onto :) i know that he's trying to be optimistic and supportive despite wanting this year to just pass by so we can see each other again. i'm happy he has the gall to stand behind my dream.

on the way up, we had planned to stop by the french consulate in san francisco and apply for my visa. so my dad had helped my mom find us a hotel for the night before, and it was a block from the consulate. perfect! we spent some time touring san francisco and pier 39. the next morning, we dined at a beautiful french cafe and then headed to my appointment. the people before me took quite a while, but when i got to the window, he asked all the questions, wrote a few things down, and went through my papers. i was over-prepared, but i had to be for fear of having to come back or something ridiculous like that. they will be sending my passport back to me by the end of the week, they said. once i get my visa, i will be really excited!

i've been thinking about the time i'm spending at home before i take on the world. i have about 8 weeks till i leave. there are a few things to take care of: you know, the dentist and optometrist and stuff like that. i already got my eyes checked and have a followup next week :) i won't be getting new glasses till next month i don't think, but that's okay with me. and keeping things packed for when i get back is weird to say the least. it's hard to know what i will need when, but i'll just roll with it. and oh man, i have so much junk here too... i'm going to throw away all these trinkets from middle school. that was 6 years ago now! hopefully that will make preparing to leave that much better and easier.

on a completely unrelated note, 31 days till my birthday! i'm going to be 20. weird. i feel 25 sometimes. the rest of the time it's like i'm a 12-year-old.


cleaning. grades. papers. love.

i am currently sleep-deprived, which apparently makes for a fair amount of creativity. i cleaned and sorted and cleaned out quite a lot of my belongings today, in preparation for packing to move back home next week. so far i have one duffel suitcase full of workout and winter clothes (except for my two favorite scarves). i also have a gianormous bag full of paper due for recycling -- mostly notes and petty little assignments that i've kept these last two years for whatever reason. i've reduced my collection to papers, exams, and notes i can still decipher. what does this have to do with going to france? well, i've realized how much stuff i own that is just sheer junk (another man's treasure?), and i'm tired of having it around. while the process might take a good portion of the summer, it is definitely rejuvenating, giving me a fresh start! on to more pertinent issues.

next week is finals, which will essentially make my college career! because next year's classes in France will be mostly GE's and electives, my major GPA will probably not see much effect... which means if i bump it from a 3.72 to a 3.75+, i will qualify for the senior honors program! this would be a big deal for me because a) i love the faculty here, and b) grad school preparation/experience. i'm just so glad that the classes i'll take in france don't have to apply to my major, as they can apply to other requirements i have yet to fulfill. however, if there are french linguistics courses that interest the hell out of me, then i may just have to take them :)

as for the relationship side of things, le boyfriend has been quite busy and therefore tired the last couple days, which is a bit inconvenient. however, he is human and has his life going for him right now, so i understand why he is so. i'm seriously looking forward to this weekend. yesterday it dawned on me (in the middle of trying to compose my last ever mmw paper) that this will be our last weekend together for over a year unless he comes to phillip and rachel's wedding. i am lobbying for the latter option. nevertheless, this will be the last real chunk quality time we have (except for when i have to study for my french final). while this makes me want to cry and be miserable, i am determined to not let that destroy the time we will have. i'll do the sad and miserable after i've gone home, when it won't interfere with our spending of time together. boy do i love him. it's remarkable how love grows with time. it's like it invents its own capacity to expand beyond our expectations. i would be cliché and say that i love him more every day, but i think what's really going on is that i learn more about the love i have for him, and as i learn more of him, the love expands along with that and gives me more to discover. what an adventure!